Vent your frustrations!

[Izagar]

Over the years I have noticed that my family is becoming increasingly dispicable. Funny how as a kid you think everything is right and when you hit being a teenager, you notice it's not. After my sister died, that's basically when I start noticing something wrong. Dad was getting sicker due to his health issues, fine, so we didn't see my aunt's family much, but she could have came and visited. Then grandma was gonna die and my aunt took her off life support, killing my grandma who couldn't breathe (she smoked her entire life). Then the rest of my family seemed to branch out more. My brother prefers hanging out with my aunt and he hasn't seen either me or mom in years and never bothered to visit us when Dad passed away. My other aunt in Canada doesn't even RESPOND to my requests on Facebook even when I asked my aunt if she can tell her sister I'm their brother's daughter. My uncles (Mom's side) didn't reach out much either; one did and we visited him but I don't like him too much. And my other brother moved out of state and hates me, mom, and my stepdad cause we kicked him out (for a good reason too, he was trying to move in his 6 member family into an apartment that the landlord only accepts two families for the size of four people total).

My family is really rude. I have anxiety and depression disorders that are real bad and I am seeing a therapist for these issues. My family keeps telling me to get a job and get over it, but I can't. Job interviews are hard on me because I get very nervous and shakey about the whole thing due to low self-esteem. I also had a recent interview with one of my "potential employers" who reamed me a new ass and said I can't get a job in the future due to my poor job record (I can't hold down a job at all, the last three jobs I had, I quit after three days (one I was fired) for various reasons). So because of shithead there, I am deathly afraid of interviews and jobs in general. I am so messed up ever since dad died that I think the darkest of thoughts at times just to get out.

Argh. Sorry for going all personal, but I needed to vent out whatever was clouding my mind this morning.

I am trying to make a living off my art because art is my passion and it's less stressful considering I'd be using Patreon to make a living. Maybe some day soon I can make enough to be with my love in Arkansas. I need $2500 a month though. >_<

[Shervik]

^ So sorry to hear about that. I hope it gets better over time.

[WeaponTheory]

(04-16-2015, 08:22 AM)Timaeus Wrote: Maybe some day soon I can make enough to be with my love in Arkansas. I need $2500 a month though. >_<

....whut

[Disk]

(04-16-2015, 08:22 AM)Timaeus Wrote: Over the years I have noticed that my family is becoming increasingly dispicable. Funny how as a kid you think everything is right and when you hit being a teenager, you notice it's not. After my sister died, that's basically when I start noticing something wrong. Dad was getting sicker due to his health issues, fine, so we didn't see my aunt's family much, but she could have came and visited. Then grandma was gonna die and my aunt took her off life support, killing my grandma who couldn't breathe (she smoked her entire life). Then the rest of my family seemed to branch out more. My brother prefers hanging out with my aunt and he hasn't seen either me or mom in years and never bothered to visit us when Dad passed away. My other aunt in Canada doesn't even RESPOND to my requests on Facebook even when I asked my aunt if she can tell her sister I'm their brother's daughter. My uncles (Mom's side) didn't reach out much either; one did and we visited him but I don't like him too much. And my other brother moved out of state and hates me, mom, and my stepdad cause we kicked him out (for a good reason too, he was trying to move in his 6 member family into an apartment that the landlord only accepts two families for the size of four people total).

My family is really rude. I have anxiety and depression disorders that are real bad and I am seeing a therapist for these issues. My family keeps telling me to get a job and get over it, but I can't. Job interviews are hard on me because I get very nervous and shakey about the whole thing due to low self-esteem. I also had a recent interview with one of my "potential employers" who reamed me a new ass and said I can't get a job in the future due to my poor job record (I can't hold down a job at all, the last three jobs I had, I quit after three days (one I was fired) for various reasons). So because of shithead there, I am deathly afraid of interviews and jobs in general. I am so messed up ever since dad died that I think the darkest of thoughts at times just to get out.

Argh. Sorry for going all personal, but I needed to vent out whatever was clouding my mind this morning.

I am trying to make a living off my art because art is my passion and it's less stressful considering I'd be using Patreon to make a living. Maybe some day soon I can make enough to be with my love in Arkansas. I need $2500 a month though. >_<

I hope everything gets better for you.

[GodHatesHipster]

(04-16-2015, 08:22 AM)Timaeus Wrote: Over the years I have noticed that my family is becoming increasingly dispicable. Funny how as a kid you think everything is right and when you hit being a teenager, you notice it's not. After my sister died, that's basically when I start noticing something wrong. Dad was getting sicker due to his health issues, fine, so we didn't see my aunt's family much, but she could have came and visited. Then grandma was gonna die and my aunt took her off life support, killing my grandma who couldn't breathe (she smoked her entire life). Then the rest of my family seemed to branch out more. My brother prefers hanging out with my aunt and he hasn't seen either me or mom in years and never bothered to visit us when Dad passed away. My other aunt in Canada doesn't even RESPOND to my requests on Facebook even when I asked my aunt if she can tell her sister I'm their brother's daughter. My uncles (Mom's side) didn't reach out much either; one did and we visited him but I don't like him too much. And my other brother moved out of state and hates me, mom, and my stepdad cause we kicked him out (for a good reason too, he was trying to move in his 6 member family into an apartment that the landlord only accepts two families for the size of four people total).

My family is really rude. I have anxiety and depression disorders that are real bad and I am seeing a therapist for these issues. My family keeps telling me to get a job and get over it, but I can't. Job interviews are hard on me because I get very nervous and shakey about the whole thing due to low self-esteem. I also had a recent interview with one of my "potential employers" who reamed me a new ass and said I can't get a job in the future due to my poor job record (I can't hold down a job at all, the last three jobs I had, I quit after three days (one I was fired) for various reasons). So because of shithead there, I am deathly afraid of interviews and jobs in general. I am so messed up ever since dad died that I think the darkest of thoughts at times just to get out.

Argh. Sorry for going all personal, but I needed to vent out whatever was clouding my mind this morning.

I am trying to make a living off my art because art is my passion and it's less stressful considering I'd be using Patreon to make a living. Maybe some day soon I can make enough to be with my love in Arkansas. I need $2500 a month though. >_<

Damn.. That's a ton of stuff to deal with man. Always try to stay positive, think good thoughts. Maybe practice interviews with a friend? Have them be super tough so that you get used to it. Dress for success. After darkness, there is light. Also ps: $2500 a month is a ton.. Maybe set your bar a little lower.. Unless you have a decent education.

[Izagar]

If my boyfriend worked then $1600 is the minimum... But I need $2500 to support me and him in an apartment... I could go down less but I prefer having quite a bit of saving money. Sakimichan is making $20,000 a MONTH off Patreon and Shilin is making $2000. Both are more known than me but I am in no rush... I'll build up my fans one day.

[WeaponTheory]

2012 was a shitty year.

One of the things to add to the list of shit was when all the popular file sharing sites had been shut down.
Since then, it was hard for me to get my music fix. Until months or maybe a year later when my friend introduced me to Grooveshark.com

Depending on the artist it probably didn't have every single song from the band's library, but very close enough.
Never had to download anything, you couldn't download the songs, and the songs were streamed and you can sign up and make a playlist of your favorite songs. And life was good. I rarely downloaded mp3s thanks to this site.


http://grooveshark.com/

As of today, because good things have to come to an end, the site finally had to be shut down for obvious reasons.

and I JUST fucking found some new bands and NEVER got the chance to remember their names.

....*sigh*

Fuck, that's it. I have nothing to go to anymore.

[WeaponTheory]

So, I have really nice online gaming friends that help out when new Download Content arrives in co-op games.
A game we've been playing for over five months has been getting stale lately, and that's good, because this lets me be creative and do far more important things in the "real world".
I mean, these creative things may not matter, but it makes me feel good, knowing that people will see my work and go "...huh".
And continue on, and that's alright by me. Or they may become a fan, which is better.
I will get nowhere if I do nothing but play video games all day, which I finally realize that I've been doing way too much of that.
So anyway, a new content of said game has release. I told my friends that I don't want it. And what do they do?

I'm stuck, I don't know what to do...out of all things, I don't want to keep playing this game that pisses me off competitively.
And I don't want to experience the so called new content in the game in which I have NO interest of.
I told them if they pull this off again, I will take this charity and turn it into something else...but I can't, because I'll end up losing a great friend like that. Because really, how fucked is that? That's like giving a homeless food money and they fucking buy drugs with it.

I don't want to go back to that life style. I like being creative again.

I've been told by numerous amount of people saying...

"Why can't you do both?"

I just can't. I tried, many times. I'll work on a project, play a new video game, and over time, that project will never get finished because I will do nothing but wake up and cut the console right on, instead of getting up and go on the computer. addiction
I have three unfinished projects over the past years as proof.

[WeaponTheory]

I've been heavily inactive on my Youtube for about 6 years.
So I've been actually trying to shake the cobwebs out and put up some content every now and then. Mostly work in progress of Flash projects and whatnot.

How the fuck when I became active, I went from 567 subscribers to 564.



I'm not usually one for "omg I got this many subs woooooo". I honestly, care more about the likes/dislike system on my videos than subs.
But bothers me that I was better off remaining a ghost. >_>

[WeaponTheory]

(06-19-2015, 08:15 AM)WeaponTheory Wrote: I've been heavily inactive on my Youtube for about 6 years.
So I've been actually trying to shake the cobwebs out and put up some content every now and then. Mostly work in progress of Flash projects and whatnot.

How the fuck when I became active, I went from 567 to 564.



I'm not usually one for "omg I got this many subs woooooo". I honestly, care more about the likes/dislike system on my videos than subs.
But bothers me that I was better off remaining a ghost. >_>

Now I'm 560.

i don't understand life.