11-11-2015, 09:32 PM
(11-10-2015, 11:02 PM)Izagar Wrote: ....I can work with other people but the job has to be slower paced to not aggitate my anxiety. My anxiety has gotten calmer but I am afraid I'll act up all over again.
Like I dropped a $20 bill out the back window because I was anxious and was being a klutz and my manager went and got the dollar bill after I got yelled at by a customer and I started to break down and cry because I was so stressed out from everything. And that was on day one of working back at a second McDonalds again after being unemployed for one and a half years.
Salvation Army was decently good but they put me at too many hours to start and after eight hours of working my knees down were hurting so bad that ibuprofen wasn't helping and I wanted to throw up from pain. Then Arby's gave me too little hours that I only got seven hours work in two weeks.
If I had a job that started me at twenty hours and was slow paced... I could PROBABLY do it. But I got the world's worse case of low self-esteem that if a job posting has too many responsibilities and uses too many fancy words, I lock up and walk away from it.
Jesus, what the fuck did life do to you?
"Who am I to tell you something that you already know?
Who am I to tell you 'Hold on' when you wanna let go?
Who am I? I'm just a sicko with a song in my head and it keeps playing again and again and again and again."
https://youtu.be/bdJ7xe70ck0