Why the fuck do I have "friends"? SERIOUSLY. JESUS CHRIST.

I use Facebook to communicate with a lot of the friends I have made on the net, like Muigi and BG2.0 to name some of the VGDCers you guys know. I have 25 friends on there. Do you know how many ACTIVELY talk to me on a daily basis? Two. FUCKING. TWO. There are some who do it every couple of days and that is fine, but that leaves about 5-6 people who actually CARE about me or want to try and be friends. I tag a lot of my friends to show them my art or show them what I worked on that I am proud of. ONLY THOSE FIVE RESPONDED BACK. And Muigi? Fuck man. He was my friend for eight years. Now he's so "busy" that he can't look at what I want to show, BUT HE GOES ON AND HE FUCKING RUNS HIS FACEBOOK PAGES AND COMMENTS ON SEVERAL FAN PAGES WHILE BEING "BUSY". WHAT. THE. FUCKING. FUCK.

I look at everything that I am tagged in and sometimes I like and run or I actually comment. It shows that I am interested and I want to talk. But none of my "friends" can do that. Muigi said he is afraid to talk to me because I will blow up. HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SINCE I BLEW UP AT PEOPLE AND YELLED AT THEM REAL BAD? It's been MONTHS since I did that. Maybe a year. But he wants to treat me like how I was back in 2008-2009 instead of what I am now, IN THE YEAR 20-FUCKING-15.

I bet none of them would care if I blew my brains out. That's about how much they value my friendship with me.

(11-19-2015, 05:41 PM)Izagar Wrote: Why the fuck do I have "friends"? SERIOUSLY. JESUS CHRIST.

I use Facebook to communicate with a lot of the friends I have made on the net, like Muigi and BG2.0 to name some of the VGDCers you guys know. I have 25 friends on there. Do you know how many ACTIVELY talk to me on a daily basis? Two. FUCKING. TWO. There are some who do it every couple of days and that is fine, but that leaves about 5-6 people who actually CARE about me or want to try and be friends. I tag a lot of my friends to show them my art or show them what I worked on that I am proud of. ONLY THOSE FIVE RESPONDED BACK. And Muigi? Fuck man. He was my friend for eight years. Now he's so "busy" that he can't look at what I want to show, BUT HE GOES ON AND HE FUCKING RUNS HIS FACEBOOK PAGES AND COMMENTS ON SEVERAL FAN PAGES WHILE BEING "BUSY". WHAT. THE. FUCKING. FUCK.

I look at everything that I am tagged in and sometimes I like and run or I actually comment. It shows that I am interested and I want to talk. But none of my "friends" can do that. Muigi said he is afraid to talk to me because I will blow up. HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SINCE I BLEW UP AT PEOPLE AND YELLED AT THEM REAL BAD? It's been MONTHS since I did that. Maybe a year. But he wants to treat me like how I was back in 2008-2009 instead of what I am now, IN THE YEAR 20-FUCKING-15.

I bet none of them would care if I blew my brains out. That's about how much they value my friendship with me.

I have 20 on FB. I only talk to 3 of them. Everyone else is just there. I wiped my profile twice. Because most of them were from high school..they were just classmates not actual friends. That's why wiped it twice. Would be done with fb. But I use to talk to gf.

Pretty much that is what I did. I made another and was going to nuke my other two eventually. I just use it to talk to my ex, Jason (<3), and then two other friends. -.-; I get a little bit more attention on Twitter.

It's not the end of the world just because someone didn't look at your stuff. Some people do get busy. Usually when we think of the word, we think of "doing something very important", but that meaning has been watered down these days. When we are at this state, we prioritized what we wanna do. You not being a thought doesn't necessarily mean a bad thing. Maybe he forgot. I don't know how many times or how long this has been going on so I'm just treating it like "Oh this happen all this week". As for the Muigi not talking to you thing, obvious some context missing here. No one is friends with someone for that long and doesn't talk because "afraid you will blow up", whatever the fuck that means from you.

This has been going on for over a year with people. Muigi says he is busy but he likes shit from fan pages and stuff while I am in the dust.

Also it not being the end of the world for my stuff? I get little love and appreciation from my stepfather and mother. They blow me off like some annoyance now because I have no job and are doing nothing to better my life.

That is the reason I get upset.. I am lacking someone caring about what I put time and effort into.

I believe the 2nd part of my signature is relevant here.

Short vent. Here is the hierarchy of who gets the greatest love in my household:

Mom > Our Dogs > Henry > My Cat >>> Me.

I just got chewed out this morning because mom is panicking about the dogs getting sick or throwing up. She never does it for me; in fact she doesn't care what the hell happens to me. She has even jokingly told me she would party when I move out. Oh and both her and my stepfather joked and telling me to drink bleach because I was annoying them at bedtime (around 10 PM... This was a year ago). WHO THE FUCK JOKES ABOUT TELLING SOMEONE TO DRINK BLEACH?!

Sigh... *slaves away at art to move out*

(11-22-2015, 11:18 AM)Izagar Wrote: Short vent. Here is the hierarchy of who gets the greatest love in my household:

Mom > Our Dogs > Henry > My Cat >>> Me.

I just got chewed out this morning because mom is panicking about the dogs getting sick or throwing up. She never does it for me; in fact she doesn't care what the hell happens to me. She has even jokingly told me she would party when I move out. Oh and both her and my stepfather joked and telling me to drink bleach because I was annoying them at bedtime (around 10 PM... This was a year ago). WHO THE FUCK JOKES ABOUT TELLING SOMEONE TO DRINK BLEACH?!

Sigh... *slaves away at art to move out*

Don't hold a grudge on it, it's just another bad day. Tomorrow and the next, brings a new day. "It's always to better to look ahead than what's behind.."

(11-22-2015, 11:18 AM)Izagar Wrote: Short vent. Here is the hierarchy of who gets the greatest love in my household:

Mom > Our Dogs > Henry > My Cat >>> Me.

I just got chewed out this morning because mom is panicking about the dogs getting sick or throwing up. She never does it for me; in fact she doesn't care what the hell happens to me. She has even jokingly told me she would party when I move out. Oh and both her and my stepfather joked and telling me to drink bleach because I was annoying them at bedtime (around 10 PM... This was a year ago). WHO THE FUCK JOKES ABOUT TELLING SOMEONE TO DRINK BLEACH?!

Sigh... *slaves away at art to move out*

God damn

Allright, I really need this because there is just too much shit that annoys me.

I saw Izagar's post up there and I do believe I am in a similiar situation. On Facebook, no-one talks to me if I don't start the convo. There was this one girl who talked to me all the time but she had a boyfriend so it's a bit bad for her to talk to me all the time. So she's not talking so much anymore.
And I have even heard complains when I do start a convo with them, that I don't ask interesting enough questions. I fucking ask them how its going, what they are doing, try to share some pictures of something similiar to their interests, so what the fuck do they want me to ask them to start a conversation?
so THIS is how I feel about them:


And I fucking work at this bouncer job which I used to work at EVERY weekend before and now I am lucky if I get 2-3 shifts a month. The boss gets pissed if I suddenly can't work, which he did get when I told him I couldnt work one weekend when i told him that I could work "MAYBE". So this weekend is the only one I get off from the other job, and I decided to give it to the bouncer job, but did they put me up on a shift? NO. even though they need people this month. No they decided to put a new guy in on where I could work. They also put in a new ad to get more people. They are throwing around people like we're fucking pokemon cards.

Making my resume ready.

And then there is my mom who's too worried about me driving over the mountains next month. Her and my dad keeps nagging me that I need to go to bed early (even though that's hard for me when I got 2 night jobs) like wtf im a grown man I can do what I want. But there's light at the end of the tunnel, I get an apartment in about 5 months. But it's still degrading to be told what to do.

TLDR;
People won't talk to me and complains when I talk to them, the boss is being a dick, my parents still think I am 15 years old. :Meh: